A Few Good Things

Just so I don't forget.

The sweetest bird is twittering outside my window, it has been for days.

The grass is greening and the sun is sunny.

One sweet friend brought me really yummy muffins last week.

  

Another decided to feed me and had us over for dinner, 

she is also wonderful at distracting the repetitive thought loops that keep playing in my mind and is so encouraging. 

The hardworking ladies that are with me in primary who make sure everything is taken care of. 

All the positive people I connect with.

(facebook friends, Holla!)

I really like my bedroom, 

(for the first time ever.)

My  Mom is going to stay with me for five days.

My torpedo belly feels pretty good. 

Tulips.

The beautiful, new to us, vehicle we were so lucky to get just in time to fit our bigering family. 

This man I get to be with who is still beyond what I imagined.

I feel so so grateful and so so blessed. 

I am going to start waxing sappy if I keep going so I'll quit while I'm ahead.

I just wanted to be able to remember this in the dark of winter so I can always feel all the goodness that is all around me. 

Six Days of Love Songs for Six Years of Love

Day 1

Annie's Song

Our first 'our song'.

How to tell your husband loves you:

Mine does nice things for me when I am sick,

like bring me treats...

Yummy!

(p.s.  those things on the cupcakes are Rings! Oh yes he did!)

There's this man...

There's this man I used to know.

He used to be around a lot.  Too much sometimes. He'd get underfoot, take over my job.

But he was here, we got to talk, I got to see him, hold him.

Heck, we even went to bed at the same time and woke up together in the morning too.

This man, now I don't see him much.

He's gone long before I wake, 

gets home late.

Occasionally he'll pop in for a couple of hours,

or be here to tuck the children in

(I even keep them up late so they can see him)

Sometimes he'll catch me off guard and be here for a meal!

This man I used to know,

I like him.

I miss him.

And I am so proud of him.

He's almost a ghost in the house,

Like a ghost, I feel him here.

We remember him,

We always think of him.

Baby lips (and mine) pray for him.

He's most often gone, but he's not a stranger.

He is working.

Working for us.

Working for our future, working for our now.

He does more than many men would do.

So I will take care of things here.

I will keep everything ready for him.

Someday, this man I used to know will come back.

He will put his arm around me and we will look at what we built.

At the possibilities these years of being gone gave us.

And it will all be worth it.  

Good Things

After all that heaviness I thought I should spread around some goodness.

Since my last post (or because of it, and all of your help) 

I feel like I've had a break though. 

 I feel like I've literally broken through to somewhere better.  I am better and everything else seems better too.

Sooo here are some good things.

Book Club

One of the top five best things for my soul. (I think it's number two after being spiritual and before being in nature,  good art and breathing in babies/my husband (cause he is the man your man could smell like.))

Books, friends, great food, laughter and a good amount of silliness (that would put fear in to any poor husband who happens to be around).  

Who needs to drink to have fun?  Not us!

Baking Bread

Made some with my boys yesterday and enjoyed the experience. (I typically leave baking till the late hours of the evening to avoid doing it with them,  I am not one of those moms that loves to bake with her kids, it would make me pull out my hair if my hands weren't so much messier than usual from baking with kids!)

But this was good!

Fun and tasty.

They made really interesting shapes and then we had warm buns with honey and hot chocolate for lunch.

Mmmmm.

Going to the Park.

Hiking through the snow and finding animal tracks.

Sunshine on my face.

Really Playing with my Kids.

Snuggling with my Honey.

He has this new shirt that feels so cozy and safe.

It has snaps that are just like the ones on my Dads shirts when I was a girl.

I love it, and him even more.

Job Charts.

I made some for the kids and they love it!

Every time they do a job they get...wait for it...

a check mark.

When they have five then they get a sticker.

I know, exciting hey?

I made one for me too. It only has five things on it.  

Read scriptures

Dishes

1 load of laundry

(that means folded and put away)

Engage with the kids

Dance

I'm pretty confident doing this every day will make me feel way better and freed to be able to do way more fun and interesting things as well as giving me some sense of accomplishment every day.

So there are some good and wonderful things that I am so happy about and grateful for.  Life has all kinds of good things in it and I just have to let my self see them and make them happen.